DEAD todae... ='(
Wednesday, July 11, 2007 @ 7:08 AM
I totally unhappy wif myself todae..first time in RP i feel so useless,stupid and useless..stupid..and useless and stupid...today problem is difficult..i spent the whole break 2nd time to research..no msning..no blogging..no friendster..plainly researching...after 2 hours,i still cant find anything frm yahoo..google...yahoo..google...damn..how useless brat am i??seeing the unsatisfied and impatient faces i know I am such a failure teammates..indeed a failure scribe too..but i really concentrate todae!i'm totally a fool..a joke..maybe..=( bitting my lips..i still continue to search for information...no..still cant find..holding back tears...no i still cant find!!!frm 2nd break till 2:32pm..i found nth and contribute 0% to the presentation...! wat a joke!dear called me juz now..he is revising 6p...den tell him some of my problem todae..lucky dear nv blame me...he say is not my fault..he tell mi nt to blame myself..thx god..i feel so relieve...but i cant stop myself thinking negatively todae i too stress up...and get myself sick..hope tml i can go judo training...i must...left 2 days till my birthday have to cheer up! i will try to..smile..i wan to smile to everyone...i noe somewhere inside everyone's heart..they will smile back to me..even if they dislike me..i wan warmth frm everyone...happiness,fun and laughter is wat i wish for w25k..argh..have to wait for nxt week to watch harry potter..=(about the 'forever dun hug policy' with dear...i see how long can it last...=/ ... i alwaes the ones hu alwaes get touchy...haha..head really hurts alot now... too sick to move on... i juz wanna cry out my unhappiness...cry abit...tt's comfortable now...=) but feeling very very sick...somebody help!