0.o''
Wednesday, January 30, 2008 @ 6:26 PM
coming sch todae for entreprise...actually dun feel like going de...but, last 2 days le... Hope after tis sem 2.. we all still keep in contact! dun forget to ask me out ar peeps! Radsapdy practice todae...awww...@ TRCC...i dun really like there..i juz prefer practice @ w4 open there...and the instructor..I dun like her either.... sigh* I prefer sectional lor...more fun~
I so sianz now... awaits my swimming and jap feast on saturdae! wahahaha! and wanna watch CJ7 and death note for sure!
Feeling so fcuked up and rejected now... I wanna crawled onto my bed and cry...now in this unfamilar place..I cant seek any comfort...I wanna cry onto tt shoulder...but I noe I will nv find tt shoulder anymore...I hate myself...I really hate it...I wanna find a place to hide...And waiting for someone to find me...but it seems tt no one bother to find me...I might as well hide there, cry there and die there... I dunoe why...I hate myself so much...I called and tell mum..."you should have given up my life and save yours during birth...why take the risk of ur life to bring me into this ugly world? And plus, giving mi this failing weak body?" Well..mum was loss of words...grieve..
I hate sufferings...I really wanna run away from the reality..and wat the fcuk is tt..at this tme...I keep thinking of lambo-san? I have to force myself to stop loving him now... if not...I more in pain...wat to do if I cant hold my pain any longer...? I think I going berserk now..wat can save me now? Perhaps Lambo? I juz wanna cry to sleep now..in this unfamilar place...
LAMBO-SAN
Tuesday, January 29, 2008 @ 2:09 AM
Haha..I realise I like Lambo-san from Reborn anime so much lei! Changing Kazuki to Lambo-san! I think I have to move on le! So many guys out there..I cant to be stuck wif Lambo-san right? HEHEHE! Change for the better!
For now ... I juz admire Lambo-san! woooHOOO~ he is soo KAWAII!... his personalities also like me seh!
zzzzz
Monday, January 28, 2008 @ 6:14 PM
Lambo-san frm Reborn is so cute...and people who cosplay Lambo is so cute also! wahahaha...
Today...nt feeling very good...early in the morning have to listen to mum's complain... nearly quarrel wif her...the word she say to me...i freaking pissed off lor...nearly use my life to threaten her... I juz dunnoe wat to do... I really hope tt tis can end... I really mean it what I say de lor,at least when I say tt..my mum totally shut up..... fcuk sia...My mood... very fcuked up now...
Okay...cool down... on valentine...I feel like baking cookies for people I loved and people who love me... I'm using the lover's nut to bake some nice cookies... but chappy still not cheer up yet...I dunnoe what am I feeling now...dun feel like wanna go home... I dunnoe...I think I too mean to my mum juz now...but she says tt...it so selfish of her...I hate it...all becoz of her..make me so giddy...
Sigh..I hope for a better now...
cognitive last lesson
@ 6:06 AM
Today sectional @ w4 was fun seh! can you imagine...sectional in the girl's toilet??!! haha...we are all crazy peeps! I pia 3 songs todae... so tired now...it was really fun and enjoyable! really!
Today is cognitive last lesson~ awww...I will miss Mr wong ar! He very kind todae...forked out $50 for us to buy pizzas...our lesson end freaking early todae! HAHA~ after tt go out wif frenz to cwp, starbuck to chill and slack! Todae really very shiok! do nth at sch!
Hope tml..patrick tay allow us to slack!
<3
PEST
Sunday, January 27, 2008 @ 3:37 AM
Recently there is a 'pest' pestering me... is fcuking pissing me off lor... Who you think u r to me? Anyhow make decision for me...think you my lao peh(dad) ar...wanna diee izzit? Or are you a spy 'someone' sent to kacau(disturb) me? Fcuk off can? I dun wan near a pest...someone so prevert like you...ur action...too weird...towards me...I juz wan to maintain a normal level wif you can? If you behave weird towards me again...you better watch out...FCUK OFF!
Told a gd fren of mine about the 'pest' thingy...well think he doesn't take in too much concern...he juz abit shocked and tell mi maybe a misunderstanding...tis 'pest' ..you think it up and down, diagonally...or 360 degree view...tis is totally abnormal lor...now..I juz avoid and ignore...that's all...
Still thinking of him...I was so happy that I dream of him...Shit..am I the one prevert now? Even I like tis guy... I will not behave too weird towards him =D Todae been reading alot of books while listening to songs..when come to some songs...I think of him again...his image keep flashing onto my mind...and i have to stop reading to rest awhile and den continued again...anyway...I'm so happy that he smiled and wait for me in my dreams...I noe..it will never come true...
Told ah pa that...me and 'that guy'(kazuki) cannot be together...is a sad ending for me...which I wanna continue walking on...I noe the later part..I will be the one suffering in pain..tis is the price to pay if you love someone so deep..and he does not noe..trust me...one sided love is so painful...If I have a choice I would rather escape it...but no way I can escape...coz I'm deeply rooted to tis guy...Crying at night comforts me a little...when thinking of loving him so much...but yet he does not noe... This same thing happen to me in sec sch life...I so in love wif tis guy for 5 years...of course,a one sided love...in the end...some one let a leak that I like him...and he end up rejecting me...so..I too afraid to confess to people up till now...
I juzt wan to see kazuki's happy smiling face...I already very happy le! This is all I wish for...
The Mist
Saturday, January 26, 2008 @ 4:00 AM
Todae gone vocal training at tanjong pagar...well..session turn damn bored for me..I swear I nv gonna turn up for tt training again...for 3 hours...we have been clapping in beat...BORING! Music theory SUX! Well..mondae got sectional @ w4 open space there...WTH...sectional there ppl walk here walk there...so pai sei...
After tt, went amk wif ah pa to makan,coz meeting chorppy and his 3 frenz at amk... Met ronnie at amk wif his parent...haha so coincidence...LOLx..after makan, we buy tickets to movie den go arcade to kill time...well..nv pay too much attention while the boys playing..coz His image keep flashing onto my mind..I really missed him alot..but I cant tell him...damn it..anyway...in the end,he will forever will nt noe that I like him...sad...I nv consider confessing to him either...coz I think I noe he will reject...I have no courage...better leave the confession part to the guy's role la...!
after tt,ard 4pm.. we go watch "The Mist" movie..The front part very shiok...so scary...but the ending SUX like hell...anyway have great time wif frenz la~ actually wanna go drinking after tt de...coz I too tired liaoz...so is cancelled...sorry guys! I'm happy now,nt emo..no use getting drunk...
I wish I have the courage to tell him tt i like him...but..as a girl..i dun wanna take the initiative to do it...when someone you like, confess to you...it is something wonderful you ever want it to happen...aww...wat am I thinking...Is either I rely on time to forget him...or quietly,secretly...love him...behind his back...I will choose to love him secretly...although this is a painful path I choose...Body is willing but my mind is weak...I seems that I cant run from the reality that I like him...since the beginning? I going mad now! arh...how I wish I cant think of him..for juz one day!!!
love~!
Friday, January 25, 2008 @ 2:35 AM
Pon sch todae juz to go shopping wif mum @ bugis~ my leg aching liaoz..frm 10am+ to 5pm..keep walking ard!...mommy so nice...brought me few stuff cost ard $100...see...mommy so heart me~ I heart her too!
topic discussing wif mommy todae is roughly about guys! haha...mommy ask mi wat my type of guys I like..tis is my criteria:
-Average looks
-Average built(not too thin or fat..must be hugable)
-MUST be TALLER den me(at least 170+)
-Average financial background (must can support me arh!)
-Good characteristic(kind,caring,helpful,cheerful...)
-good Gamer...(nt a nerd pls!)
-Freaking SMART!!!
-good fashion sense
-Gentlementship
-Sporty(optional)
Sigh...frenz ard mi are all attached..sisters frm sec sch all got bf liaoz..I so damn envy them! When will I meet my true love? My heart is been stolen by somebody...I hope he can return my heart back ASAP...Becoz one sided love is horrible and painful...XD....I like tt person..no use of him not liking me...SIGH SIGH SIGH...
Alex Lim
Thursday, January 24, 2008 @ 1:06 AM
WoOOOts~ Alex Lim faci my cass todae.... AWWW...he's totally hot...He's totally a cutie~ ROAR!!! Sadly..he is leaving RP next week....sob sob....miss him la....he is really a gd faci...ALEX LIM~ LOVE YA!!! haha!
Okay...going audition later~ wish mi all de best !!! =D
audtion tml!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008 @ 8:08 AM
Okay...Brother juz cancelled my phone...argh..getting a student plan tml...and c can upgrade my internet plan bo...wanna get the plan which got free WII, currently internet is 5M, see can upgrade to 8M...
So people who need to contact me, pls do contact me @ msn messenger, if urgent/emergency,pls call my hse no. ... the lastest I get my phone line back is friday~ so have to wait lor...sianz...without phone...can dieee la...stupid bro so fast terminate my line coz bill too high...WTH...I nv use alot still so much...sianz...Hopefully tml can quickly get a $0 plan la~
enterprise UT tml...nt going study as usual...hope can get B arh XD
Singing audition tml...I freaking nervous..plus...try-out song nt prepared,which I was told last minute...DIE DIE DIE...I really wan to get in sapprano section....XD Hopefully can get in laah...I think I going sing teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift...tml...argh!!!! I going mad liaoz...LOLx
emo me
@ 12:06 AM
today so bo liaoz...about group de...so sianz...still muz relate back to real life.. sia la....really bo liaoz... breakfas wif mum todae~ hehe... mommy even ask mi to pon sch to go shopping wif her~ but think back,only left last few weeks liaoz...after tis..cant c friends anymore...so mus make use of the time to go sch~ and see my cute frenz~ haha!
I so giddy now....=.= think maybe hungry lor...tml enterprise UT...wooots...hope can do well!
okays...tata~
damn damn damn
Tuesday, January 22, 2008 @ 6:46 AM
Okay~ new blog! love it! So pinkish! anyway..got some prob with the blog skin...anyway..cant find the error to fixed it..nvm~ cute can le...
I so troubled now... I so afraid... I really nid someone to confide in... but who can I trust? I really scared pls... The more I think...more is a nitemare for me... I wanna end it now pls...I too afraid to go forward...
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I hope for a better... wish my nitemare can stop now ... or pls make it back to the normal state it used to be ... the more you force me, the more I'm afraid of u... pls stop tt..
lazy pig chappy
Monday, January 21, 2008 @ 6:07 AM
Todae totally bo mood do work...been slacking...and does all my work within 20mins...haha dun think fasi is happy..but glad to heard fasi saying "gd try"...haha of course..less den 20 min work...been smoking all the way thru!
Been playing bball straight after sch wif the boys... I damn tired now...bo strength le... tml UT, nt gonna study as usual..hope can smoke a pass...=x wow...been looking at guys more often le... haha I so bian tai~! all ah pa's fault... but I cant forget Kazuki ...as I say... he likes de rain, but I like de snow, we r of 2 different world,is unrequitted love, only thing I can do is to place him in the space in my heart, and look at him from afar... only thing I can do right?
Left less den 2 weeks le...slacking mode already on! I looking forward to chalet! OPPS..haven pay $$$ yet =.=''' MUZ O$P$ ... haha... miss the old days~
okay~ time for bedtime story~ nitezzz peeps!
=D
Sunday, January 20, 2008 @ 7:31 AM
Spring clean my room todae! cant U imagine 4 hours of labour??!! met a stupid lizard while cleaning my room~! haha! I scream and call bro to catch it! but the lizard damn smart...body so nimble...run here and there...grrr...at last..let it escape no where! After cleaning kor kor brough some reward for me! haha! my effort is worth! after tt help sew bro's pant...haizz...he big guy now..dunnoe how to sew pants....
Sorry that my previous blog entry sounds abit...emo... I usually does emo when I'm alone...I'm dumb right? sry tt xiaojing very very dumb dumb....~.~ I, myself dun like it either >.<
I wanna join a martial arts...need to discipline inner and outer me! Akido appears a choice for me though...
T.T
Saturday, January 19, 2008 @ 12:44 AM
I dunoe y..i so sleepy nowadaes...i'm so tired...even i sleep early at night... I still can fall asleep in the day... omg...wat's happening to me?
I dun wan care anything anymore... I wanna sleep ... I too tired with many things...and like to take a break from it... it is torturing me... I wanna scream, I wanna shout... and I wanna cry ... cry out loud in the locked room, where no one can see... hide somewhere else, where no one can find u...
The way to escape reality is to sleep and dream for me... but nitemares haunt me... I really afraid...I'm so scared...reality or dream..I cant differentiate...enough of it..I very tired...I dun wish to be tortured anymore...and I dun wish to be the one torturing you... can juz end it with one shot? I so in pain...I juz wanna cry out...bite back my lips...I appeared as normal in front of you... I so confused now...and I nt going to care anymore..i juz wanna sleep now...
Sianzation
Thursday, January 17, 2008 @ 12:38 AM
sianz sianz sianz todae...I so sianz.... problem todae sux..all we nid to do is do research...stupid sia...I so bored and went off playing monopoly with others...they so funny, smuggle the whole monopoly game out of the library! anyway...I so BORED...!
WOOTS~ mummy,kor and er sao is back from hong kong and bring me so much presents! I really really appreciate it! plenty of thanks for them! In the end got 3 bags, 2 shoes, 2 belts, 1 HP strap, 1 minnie mouse ring, 1 mickey necklas, 1 furry jacket, 1 Disney Tee shirts, 2 black tights, 1 apple lip balm, 1 scarf...and some stuffs which I may have forgotten...can tell that most of the present hor... is for me de...I so happy lor~ love them so much!
tonite mummy say going that we going to eat pigeon meat which she brought frm hong kong...o.0''' I scared to eat cute animals lei..anyway...treat it as chicken meat can le >.<''
sianz...now all alone in class,killing time to blog tis...I dun wanna go home so early T.T'''... In my previous post...I did say that I die once and being saved again..it is the time when I was born. And the cause of weak heart comes from this. Mum tt time is 35 yr old when giving birth to me, while she can no longer can done a natural birth so she need operation...this is when she have her loss of blood and I'm stuck inside her womb dying...doctor ask my dad one question..."you wan to save your wife or you daughter?" my dad without hesitation say "BOTH!" well...this gives the doctor very difficult choice to decide the priorities...but tt time my mum life line already turn horizon..which means she is dead..and me was like going dead..coz I still stuck inside...den the doctor take out shocker to give my mum the chance to survive...luckily..she did..and operation was done faster to rescue me inside, the time I was out of the womb...my whole body have turn black...yes BLACK...and doctor quickly put me into the ICU. This is how I survive.
Thinking back...If mum die...whole family will hate mi, and I may end up in the orphanage perhaps? If I die...probably no a very big impact? I dunnoe... But what if i'm stuck in tt situation... I rather die and save my mum....
Okay enough of it...going home le! Buai buai~
ty... ...
Tuesday, January 15, 2008 @ 11:47 PM
Today gone mac wif frenz~ den go for computing...it turn out not tt bad because we all got the codes! well...I juz creating more error and Da jie did the best job of solving all my mistakes! 3 cheers for Da Jie Dorinda!
Okay..I forgot when mum's coming back...either todae night or tml...haha..anyway..I awaits my presents frm hong kong!
Todae, really bo mood to eat..or should I say, no appetite to eat...anyway.. 1 meal should be enough for me bah..I dun really care!Been bitten by unknown things and it leave a awful mark on my right arm...anyway...juz hack care la~
I felt that my body have been behaving funny these days,feeling giddy when angry,giddy until everything is like spining~...anyway..no choice, who ask me to born with such weak body...weak heart~ I have die once, and saved when I'm juz born...maybe I juz dun belong to this world...
peace
@ 6:25 AM
My mama...nowadaes keep overslept...always sleep all the way to sch...even walk also wanna dozed off...I think I'm a pig...=.=
I being realli pissed off now by some particular reason, eveytime tok to u I kena pissed off...alright! since U dun like me, I cant help it, is ur problem. Since U wan peace and equality, let's have it den!
okay...I feeling damn giddy now...things around me..seems like spinning...I think I better go rest~ Oyasumi nasai~
=.= SLeePy
Monday, January 14, 2008 @ 5:46 AM
Todae lesson abit interesting...abt experiments...and is DAMN easy..dun have to present much! wahahaha!after sch go off library slack off abit wif tweety to play bo liaoz games..anyway quite fun laa! Life muz be fun and enjoyable mah and NOT STRESS with idiotic tight schdule~ even u r stress, play with it smarty...
feeling evnied when c "xxx" on the street... haha..maybe is time for me to find....? Dunnoe...how can I find someone whom I worth for? Love, how can u define love? Is it love when the guy loves u like hell, cares about u, waste money on you, buy something for you which you like? Love is blind, love is complicated..but I always have prob wif relationships which is..."trust" always kena defeated by it...anyway dear shermy~ you nt alone~ I always be ur side to support you! dun feel down or emo, I'm sure u will find a ideal girl in ur life and mi will find a guy whom I deserve..we will one day receive that kind of blessing..I believe!
today heard a interesting story..haha dunoe whether is fact or rumours...I SO CURIOUS ABOUT IT LOR....DAMn...si tweety bird...dun wanna tell me...U DIE LIAOZ...zzz...So tired nowadaes..I really wanna find a reliable shoulder for me to lean on den fall asleep...quite stupid la...todae during MRT trip to sch...I so tired until I got the urge to lean on the stranger's shoulder...lucky nv...I quickly pulled my head back...=.=''' Wow..maybe is really time....haha...heng lor..tt stranger is some young guy...not uncle -.- If not, I will appeared very very stupid...
Okay~ time for drama! Jai ne minna-san! Mata ashita!
noe me gd, dunnoe me, dun act big, F OFF!
Sunday, January 13, 2008 @ 6:27 AM
sleep at 8.45am todae and wake up ard 1pm+ to get prepared...I so exhausted~ so sleepy. meeting trojan at cck...and he is late as usual after tt took train go yishun to meet tweety xiao di. reach douby meet KW and his gf.
Okay starts playing snooker wif trojan and tweety..and whoever I team wif end up losing...I'm a team killer okay? always play foul den end up plusing points for opponent... lower my own morale ..and 1 snooker game took hours okay? So sleepy...losing my focus..until I keep missing at the end. But I prefer pool..more more den snooker lor..less restriction is much more better.
After the game, trojan rush home left the rest go mac and slack abit..talk crap...den BOOM zhao home~ tml maths UT..nt going study a shit about UT anyway...haha...juz crap all the way la!
Btw..I being PISSED OFF by Shinichi ... pls dun anyhow tok crap to me and ur crap is fcuking hurting me... pls think twice, or thrice be4 u spit ur words out..can? Offend me at the second sentence liaoz...tt's y I dun bother to tok to u anymore... I know wat I am doing... is right or wrong I know it at least... dun u ever tok big or act big, don't you know that empty barrel makes the most noise? So shut the fcuk up if u dunnoe me!
PS: ass la...I get hungry so easily nowadaes...shit...have to cut down the intake of food liaoz..*munching potatoe chips now* ARGGGHH WTF I AM EATING!!!
I suki...family,kazuki,haruka
Saturday, January 12, 2008 @ 6:48 AM
tml morning, mummy, er ge and er sao going hongkong le!They taking a 6:20am flight. Envy them so much! Hope they buy me as much presents as possible ar! Wish them have a safe journey and bon voyage!
I really wanted a tattoo..ask mommy about this and she is totally against it! sad...bro say it does not look good when u turn old, when ur skin become saggy..haha, but I always imagine me having a design....maybe a chio flower behind my back. KA-GU-II!!!
Sigh* ... my mind always thinking of Kazuki ... my dear Kazuki ... why cant u deleted frm my mind? I cant denied it... yea...I like Kazuki... dunoe when I start feeling it...How does Kazuki feels about me? bad girl? awwww~ cant stop thinking about u Kazuki-kun! but I think is better for us to be frenz hor? But I still LIKE you! Kazuki-kun! well~ as in frenz!!! You make my day smile always~ love ya!
Being watching some anime and Jap drama when nt mapling... one anime le..."Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro" in english is akuma detective...nice sia..so funny... another Jap drama is call "Kuitan" about a detective who keeps on eating...always making me hungry while watching it! After tt realise tt I keep on watching detective shows.. people who truly noes me will noe that I love to watch Detective stuffs...especially detective novels... I still rmb in sec sch..reading too much detective stuff..even beig summon to councelling...haha so fun!
anyway..now being so bored...mummy will b flying soon..mummy wun nt be home for mi to bully....so sianzz =x. Nvm..tml pooling wif the bunch of cliques so nv be bored tml! okay back to mapling~ tata!
PS: finding Mr Chappy for Miss Chappy! any male hu interested, pls kindly sent a copy of application of resume of ur own to yume_dreamer13@hotmail.com Thank You :)
pon sch
Wednesday, January 9, 2008 @ 1:09 AM
PQ wif daddy till 2am den continue PQ till 4:45am...todae pon sch! haha! I noe is VB todae so purposely dun come, plus I first time pon whole sch day! so my first X for the second semester...see la...wanna pon...muz see de...I usually pon the last few weeks of sch! hoping it to end fast..haha~ den 2 months holidae...shiok...!
xiaoChappy finally lvl 50 le... use 3 weeks like tt to train! I noe very slow le~
xiaoChappy finally lvl 50 le... use 3 weeks like tt to train! I noe very slow le~
Anyway.. I love you the way the love me,you always by my side...to protect me! a arigatou to you! your the angel who always stay wif me thru tis life..for eternity... you deserve a big thank you!
Okay UT tml...do u think I will study? pls la...UT I never study de...No use studying~play better hor~ haha! anyway hope tml UT I can understand...pray*
sch starts!
Sunday, January 6, 2008 @ 8:31 AM
tml sch starts... dunnoe..abit happy... see my grades for daily and UTs...so far all pass..lucky..thx god! well..I slack at the end...haha... bro,er sao and mum going hong kong tis sundae...wanted to sent them off...tt means ...GOT A REASON TO GO AIRPORT! I so happy...can go my favourite place...
currently watch coffee prince korean drama EP 1... haha damn nice to watch! recommend it!
okay... sch starts...sad is..have to slp early , wake up early... happy is..nt bored le...at leeast can get my brain working again... I bet tml..my brain sure very rusty... and my e-mail flooded wif e-mails...haha..confirm de..! anyway..i dunnoe wat is tml module and who is in my team...gosh...3 weeks forgot le...
PS: liqi jie~ okay I will not post unhappy stuff~ coz sch starts!.. have to stop my emo-ing! =D
Oyasumi Nasai Minna!(gd nite everyone)
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Friday, January 4, 2008 @ 9:52 PM
Currently being watching anime nowadaes...currently watching Clannad ... Very kawaii kind of anime... think I really fall in love wif anime now... I feel tt I have being a different person ... anyway, ppl ard me have cause me to change ... is not the same Chappy as be4 ... is lost..forever... okay...happy now?
Miss Chappy is so X up now!
Thursday, January 3, 2008 @ 9:27 AM
I getting so irritated now by XXX...I dun think anyone can save me frm tt...see (?) having XXX now...I also wan...do I really have time for it again ma? How I wish I can XXX again...but what will other think of me? I feeling so hopeless now...really... how I wish I'm dead..disconnect frm all things tt let mi worried, angry or sad... But taking the gd point of being cut frm XXX... I regain something..something which u luv to experienced... anyway..games have taught me tt..everything will have its own good and bad...
But somethings realli pissed mi off like hell...I nv wanna step in to there again to see so many ppl going XXX...especially ppl I noe...
ARGH........I GETTING SO FCUKED UP NOW!!!!
maybe....could juz killed me off! sick of it!
now wat...I realli envy (?) ... so envy him...getting all the happiness be4 me...
I watch finish an anime todae "myself, yourself" (sry..mi anime freak)
I'm touched by it...
How I wish to be Nanaka to be protected by her long lost frenz..I really like it when they quarrel tt time, nanaka say when she needed him, he is nt around...how torturous...den hiroki says tt..now he will protect her, be with her forever... tt time i soooooo envy Nanaka!!!
the twins sibling love of shuu and shuri is soo damn touching...I nearly cried while watching them eloping...and Aoi is so cute! haha..though the voice kinda sux...
I am waiting for a knight to say tis...I will protect you, stay by your side forever....awwww....But I dun think I will have the priveledge of getting to heard it...not a chance for mi i guess...i might as well go bang wall and die!
gtg sleep, pq wif ahpa juz now...damn tiring now...tml nid wake up early to go market buy grocery~ haha gonna c tt cute guy in ntuc again =x well gd nite!
is FADING...
Wednesday, January 2, 2008 @ 11:03 AM
Okay time passed like no one business, IS 2008 BABY!!!...Have being staying at home rot these few daes...even in sch holidays...I juz dun feel like going out...coz bo dough to spend liaoz...I feel like I have been sleeping most of the time...pig!
On new year count down also dun bother to go, ah pa is kind enough to call mi out..but really...I BO MOOD lei...haha sry for ur kind offer, ron ask mi out for pool als bo mood...I have being so moody nowadaes!
Have a fight wif mum todae...coz she wan me to pray but i refused..den she come to my laptop...and ripped off one of the laptop keys, letter "T"...luckily big bro is able to fixed it! Still having cold war wif mum dunoe until when will resolve...anyway..I still abit angry about it! HMPH!
I thinking it have changed...I hate people who change,in terms of attitude,actions,mindset, do you noe tt changing urself also change me too...changing again will lead to losing of own original personality...but why must u change? forcing me to change to my other self...I hate it...really hate it...so selfish r you?I dun wanna care anymore!
NItemarES go away! I wanna have a normal dream for todae pls....stop torturing me!!!!
My new year resolutions :
-Slim
-More money
-Study Hard
-Play Hard
-Healthy and Happiness of everyone
-normal XXXXXX
-BF??!! haha...perhaps
-Start desiging
-clear all my CE by year 2