Totally disappoint in bf...
Sunday, August 26, 2007 @ 8:41 AM
thx for bf to help me spring clean my room yesterdae..yes..is so nice of him...whenever sweet moments past so quickly..
todae bf sms wrong msg to me..he actually sms to a girl..about meeting her tml morning to go the course together...of course I never tell him tt he msg the wrong number and instead tt the msg is sms to me(he nv notice it though)...I keep telling myself..y meet her..
cant he go alone or meet other guy friend instead?.she is a girl...nt ur gf pls...using the same method of meeting mi to meet her....what the fuck...can any girl tolerate own bf to meet other girl? answer is NO..I ask my bro.."if u got gf...will u meet wif another girl for something?"..my bro answer.."of course not!who will be so dumbass??!!" I noe tt he sometimes he got go to her class to tok to her...nvm..I close one eye..tolerate..I noe wat he wans frm me...he wans my shell or my heart?I so confuse..failure he is...nv call/sms mi up oftenly,nv adore me as i wanted him to be...and i can tolerate him 2 and half months! bravo xiaojing!
So lesson for all guys who have gf : dun ever(except something damn emergency), callup/sms/meetup/chitchat with other girl/girls..u are juz digging ur own grave towards breakup.***I wish he nv sms wrongly..but thx god tt I have found out tt he meeting a girl tml morning..irony izint it?Poor bf..sms wrongly...instead he sms to ME..
tis may not be the first time he done it...maybe behind my back he did do such thing alot of times and i not aware of it...***
ty~karis-jie for ur advice...after toking to u..i feel much better...feel much better after crying..thx alot!.yeah...I cannot decide so quickly on 'tt solution'...pls bf....dun hurt mi anymore...i dun have much tolerance...I noe I'm childish or watsoever....u make mi tears...how dare u...are u tt worth to let mi cry?...
Whenever I cry,I got hurt by u...u nv noe...u will CONFIRM nv notice my unhappiness..y? is easy coz u never 100% cares about me...i juz ur spare parts i suppose? because
u did not 'invest' alot on mi..makes mi feel so insecure...i noe...u now still think tt i'm unstable...i will leave u anytime...DEN...stop ur foolish act and stop hurting mi!at this rate u might as well go for ur godsis or ur ig partner as ur gf!***U r hurting me..stabbing me...kinda of killing/mudering me...and tis is call love? or is it love in the first place?***what i expect in my bf...which my bf rarely done it...
>Be faithful to me..
>adore me
>trust me
>cares alot about me
>phone me oftenly (not everyday..but once per 2 days)
>wans my heart but not my body
>love me truly,deeply....
>can scacrific certain things for sake of me(dun really...think he can..)
>head hurts cant think of it anymore...
wish I have a cartons of beer now...so have urge to drink...damn it..wish i can get drunk now and sleep...i cant sleep tonite, thx to my bf.something comforting...tml meeting my bunch of sec sch frenz for movie&breakfast in the morning...tis makes mi feel better...CONCLUSION:guys are such a jerk..fucking asshole..knn...it so rare for mi to use vugalrities...i will use it when i damn fucking angry...now I will walk and c...cant sleep tonite...numb myself to play maple bahs...wat a long blog todae...thx for ur patience to read my pathetic blog entry for the day...