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Tuesday, August 14, 2007 @ 9:06 AM
todae...still feeling feveish...but manage to scrape thru my cognitive problem todae...phew...is really tedious work...somemore i'm sick...i so stress...todae after sch...dear seems very angry and moody...I ask him y he look so grumpy but dear dun tell me... of coz I have try to cheer him up...but no use,...he juz dun smile...I wonder wat's wrong... dear nt happy how can I happy wat..***It seems tt u dun wanna pour out ur worries and anger or anything u nt happy to let me noe..why?why?why?I'm ur gf baby..I have the right to noe...silence, ignorance or avoidance wun resolve anything..trust me...it will make matter worst...of course I will not be happy too..rmb I dun really like to show my unhappiness...even I'm sad or angry...i will plainly smile...but in my heart...thousand needle stabbing me...what to do? feel so pain...***after tt when reach home...i suddenly collaspe onto the floor...I feel my heart have some jabbing pain...and my vision become darkened ...DAMN...wat's wrong wif me...feeling breathless..grasping for air...how pathetic am I...can't be I kana virus or somehing ba? nonono...I can't be so 'sway'I always wonder...whenever walking wif dear...when not rushing for time...why does dear always walk so fast?everytime..dear walk fast..I cant catch up...plus if I'm toking halfway, I will feel breathless..grasping for air..(maybe tt due to my weak heart)does tt mean he dun enjoy slow walk wif me? tell him umteems times...dun walk so fast...I have so many things to wonder...whether he will feel tired wth me?whether he really enjoy his time with mi...so much...ops..I feel so blank now..I wanna ask him many things...but...I cant say...why?I dunoe..juz cant say...(swear if he look at my blog..he will mouth-open)guilty am I...I am such a bad girl...i pass my sickness, my virus to dear tt makes him sick...shit...maybe dear is angry tt he not be able to go for his IG today coz he sick...he say he dun mind...but when I look at his face...his words and expression does not match...grrr....xiaojing...u a bad girl...nxt time I sick...think dun go close to him le...T.Tdun have alot of time to spent wif dear...tt's why I'm awaiting SAT! fireworks wait for me!...I wanna try XXXXXXX(in case he c my blog..he wun de la!)...romantic arh? going library...reading books together...and falling asleep on his shoulder....arrhhh....which I wanted it to happen....time time time...giv us more time to spent together pls...! slp slp slp ! gonna slp...! hope i recover tml...LOVES!SWEET puzzle here..bet no one will noe the ans!formed a sentence...--> DOOG-CLAY -JINX -EEVIL