..........Can u heard my heart crying?
Saturday, November 3, 2007 @ 8:06 AM
As I have expected, bf is not free on this one week holidae...to be precise, this holiday I only meet him once which should be saturdae...pathetic...totally pathetic! If bf continued like this, I really can predict what he will become in the future... saddening...but what can I do? Is his nature to become workaholic & busy all times? oh well...watever, is juz tt i feel that there is a distance between us, or should I say a gap? a hole?Evny wat other guys who will do anything for their gf... really, remember wat ron has said to me...I really... ... yes...I'm suffering...and I hates it...ppl ard me tell mi to end it, y? becoz I'm suffering yet he dunnoe...? I feel my heart crying again...ouch*Bf phone me jus now..(wow..he really phoned me sia)..and guess wat? I have nth to tok to him after he say he very busy over this week... being able to chat wif him is such a chore for me... msning chat wif him, I'll get 11words from him..and tt's all, whereas he can chat longer wif other ppl in msn...whenever he call me, we both will remain silent and nth to tok about...becoz y? I hav many things to tell or chat to him, but becoz of bf seldom call me, I'm not used to chat wif bf on phone...tis is wat I dun like too...thinking of this, my heart is crying again...*Although he is bz during the days I totally free, I expect him to accompany me at my working daes..surprise me a little...yet he doesn't....WTH....am I puting "Working- free till 4pm " ... I din put tt juz for deco or for fun wan lei! ... if really he did missed me, y cant he make an effort to come over to my hse or something be4 i go work?haha..xiao jing u so dumb...ur bf doesn't noe how to make surprises de!Anyway, wat I put in this blog, even bf comes in and see and realise, haha' is really too late...he really nid to learn from guys hu loves their gf until crazy de...Oh my, I have too many doubts now... and I really very tired..can u heard my heart crying now?.I feel like scolding a string of vulgarities! ... anyway..this holidae is fated and meant for my frenz, pushes bf aside... I gona spent it wif my frenz! ANYONE FREE ON WED AND FRI? I SO DESPO TO GO OUT!