shit
Wednesday, December 5, 2007 @ 2:43 AM
Todae was a emo dae for me... my team only left dorinda and me, so i join ron's team, in the end, ron and me are left in the team... yes... I felt that I'm on the edge of breaking down is a matter of sooner or later... I can go forward or backward...I will either way fall... is juz like mentally torturing me... and I'm very scared...very afraid...pieces of me is falling apart now... I dun wish to say more...todae maths is damn easy and it end early, around 4pm gone to JE to pick up my laptop @ the woodlands MRT platform, got 1 uncle saying "hello~" to me...smiling and keep looking at my breast..FUCK..LJ..CB..I quickly walk to the crowded part of the platform...but I was really scared at tt point of time.On the way it rain very very very heavily...I was 80% drenched be4 I reach acer building...my jeans are totally drenched and it makes it more heavier and difficult for me to walk...and my slipper is very slippery... From JE to acer building was a tough journey, I relied on my memory back at SAT to fnd the way...the pathway is all flooded, I'm like walking in the baby pool, both foot submerge in the water..I was freezing damn cold and refuse to take off my drenched jacket...it will make mi go 100% cold..cold wind blew, and I'm glad I got my mp4 around wif me, songs playing are all emo songs...WTH...While walking, in my mind, flashes some ppl...I hope the people whom my mind flashes is there...I never realised I'm crying after tt, coz my whole body is already wet, i dunnoe when I have started crying...I am so sad, so cold and helpless at the time being..Reached the junction point of the road, when is time to cross the traffic, I notice one traffic light button is faulty so I decided to take the other traffic light..and when I was waiting, I realised it does not have a green or red man...but later I find that it is blocked by some obstacle..it rain so heavily as I cant get the clear view, plus there is no other pedestrain around, I already halfway there,I cant turn back,so I take a foolish act, I wait at the junction for 2 mins to observe the traffic pattern, on my first attempt, when I started to cross, vehicle starts moving...I nearly got knocked down by a fucking truck! On the second attempt...I wait longer...observe the traffic pattern abit more...so I juzt run across the road when I saw that vehicle from both side have stop...I tell myself, if it was a green man, I'm lucky, if it was a red man ... ... Yes, I was lucky...I walk towards the acer building...I am already feeling very cold, I'm shivering...saw acer building finally but cant find the service centre...plus the rain still rain very heavily... when this time I got lost and confused, luckily a kind security help me by leading the way, he saw me totally drench and was kind enough to offered me a basement paasage to the service centre...when go in to the service centre, ppl there all stunned with the look at me...I feel that I'm a clown...so I quickly took my number to get my laptop...the person who served me is the same as last SAT...so when I sit down, tt uncle laugh very loudly wif his finger pointing at me....I was like....@@#$#$^**&@! but he say that I'm look better with the wet look....OMG... after getting my laptop, I take the shuttle back to JE...thank god...but still I still very cold...I just feel like crying every now and den...reach cck saw a blind lady and help her to her bus makes my heart abit warmer, but thinking of todae's matters and wat I encounter, I feel like crying again...Now I still feeling cold and my forehead burning...I jus hope for a deadly fever to finish this pathetic xiaojing off... because I noe no one can save the pathetic ones...I deserve nothing...I'm bad...I'm a murderer...