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Wednesday, January 30, 2008 @ 6:26 PM
Yesterdae quite fun lah..go shopping wif mommy...den pon sch for tt...nv c anything which I like...so help mommy choose a shirt for daddy..Yesterdae I eat alot of stuffs...1 whole bowl of duck rice..2 bowls of mago sago, 1 bowl of sesame dessert and a cup of green tea...we both shock that...we spent close to $100 yesterdae and dunnoe why..Haha..how come spent so much ar this week??!! I feel so bad... nearly spent $200 plus tis week le.. Haha..actually wanna play pool wif mommy yesterdae..but she dun feel like playing...too bad...haha
coming sch todae for entreprise...actually dun feel like going de...but, last 2 days le... Hope after tis sem 2.. we all still keep in contact! dun forget to ask me out ar peeps! Radsapdy practice todae...awww...@ TRCC...i dun really like there..i juz prefer practice @ w4 open there...and the instructor..I dun like her either.... sigh* I prefer sectional lor...more fun~
I so sianz now... awaits my swimming and jap feast on saturdae! wahahaha! and wanna watch CJ7 and death note for sure! Feeling so fcuked up and rejected now... I wanna crawled onto my bed and cry...now in this unfamilar place..I cant seek any comfort...I wanna cry onto tt shoulder...but I noe I will nv find tt shoulder anymore...I hate myself...I really hate it...I wanna find a place to hide...And waiting for someone to find me...but it seems tt no one bother to find me...I might as well hide there, cry there and die there... I dunoe why...I hate myself so much...I called and tell mum..."you should have given up my life and save yours during birth...why take the risk of ur life to bring me into this ugly world? And plus, giving mi this failing weak body?" Well..mum was loss of words...grieve..I hate sufferings...I really wanna run away from the reality..and wat the fcuk is tt..at this tme...I keep thinking of lambo-san? I have to force myself to stop loving him now... if not...I more in pain...wat to do if I cant hold my pain any longer...? I think I going berserk now..wat can save me now? Perhaps Lambo? I juz wanna cry to sleep now..in this unfamilar place...