PEST
Sunday, January 27, 2008 @ 3:37 AM
Recently there is a 'pest' pestering me... is fcuking pissing me off lor... Who you think u r to me? Anyhow make decision for me...think you my lao peh(dad) ar...wanna diee izzit? Or are you a spy 'someone' sent to kacau(disturb) me? Fcuk off can? I dun wan near a pest...someone so prevert like you...ur action...too weird...towards me...I juz wan to maintain a normal level wif you can? If you behave weird towards me again...you better watch out...FCUK OFF!Told a gd fren of mine about the 'pest' thingy...well think he doesn't take in too much concern...he juz abit shocked and tell mi maybe a misunderstanding...tis 'pest' ..you think it up and down, diagonally...or 360 degree view...tis is totally abnormal lor...now..I juz avoid and ignore...that's all...Still thinking of him...I was so happy that I dream of him...Shit..am I the one prevert now? Even I like tis guy... I will not behave too weird towards him =D Todae been reading alot of books while listening to songs..when come to some songs...I think of him again...his image keep flashing onto my mind...and i have to stop reading to rest awhile and den continued again...anyway...I'm so happy that he smiled and wait for me in my dreams...I noe..it will never come true...
Told ah pa that...me and 'that guy'(kazuki) cannot be together...is a sad ending for me...which I wanna continue walking on...I noe the later part..I will be the one suffering in pain..tis is the price to pay if you love someone so deep..and he does not noe..trust me...one sided love is so painful...If I have a choice I would rather escape it...but no way I can escape...coz I'm deeply rooted to tis guy...Crying at night comforts me a little...when thinking of loving him so much...but yet he does not noe... This same thing happen to me in sec sch life...I so in love wif tis guy for 5 years...of course,a one sided love...in the end...some one let a leak that I like him...and he end up rejecting me...so..I too afraid to confess to people up till now...
I juzt wan to see kazuki's happy smiling face...I already very happy le! This is all I wish for...