lolx...boredom
Sunday, July 6, 2008 @ 10:26 PM
Busy these few days, moving hse on 10 of july... AND wth I still haven pack up my things..anyway, I dun have alot of things...mostly books..so I guess is okay to pack it on wednesday..
last day for my art criti faci..so I have done a 600+ words RJ to impress him...HA HA HA
seriously...I really bored..in life...nth to blog, so I juz blog my today's RJ essay.
RJ Question (Art Criti) 7/7/08: Are you bored? Why?
I am bored, I wonder how many times have I chant “I am bored” in my heart since I am born. Whatever I do in life, I always end up saying, “how bored it is , nothing interesting!”. People who know me well , always says that I have a weak determination, be it love relationship, friends , games, work, goals, dreams…I don’t hold a strong determination in these.Why life is so bored? Even I have things fall according to my expectation or unexpected, I still feel that life is so bored!
When you are born, parents pampered you, grow up, study like a mad woman, get into a prestigious school, impressed your parents with good results, after receiving sufficient education, you go to work, make a lot of money, then get married, got a family of your own, and it will become another similar cycle for your kids to go through. If everything is planned, is like stick to the book method, how bored life can be?
I am bored now in my current life too, what I use to pass time, is to spent time going out with friends to somewhere else to rot, when alone, I go running or swimming, read manga and watch anime, but I am not content with my life. When I finished watching the anime, I felt entertained, only for the short period, after that, I just feel so bored and find something new to entertain me again. I love running. Why? Because when I run, my heartbeat beat so fast, I feel so warm, I feel that I am alive, the warmness from my body is the prove of my existence in life, I am a living thing, that I’m breathing and my heartbeat beats. At least, I am not bored with me, myself, I only bored with the life I am in.
I have a pet dog, he was always locked up in the 4 sided fences, he sometimes shows a happy or a gloomy face. I wonder won’t he felt life so bored? With only 4 sided fences around you, eat, sleep, play, pee, poo, he even have a smaller cycle compared to me, and he repeat the same cycle every day, won’t he feel bored? But deep down his heart, I know he just live for the sake of living, after 9 or more years, when he die, I can imagine that I will be crying, but I will feel relieved, that his death will bring him freedom.
I always trying to find things which is interesting in life, so I will not feel bored, I will try to learn new things, such like language, skills, but because I have a weak determination, I will find it boring again and gave up totally. Only thing I find it interesting is, self learning piano, I have play some pieces for some occasion which my father organized. That time, I really felt so alive, playing the piano and people listen, this kind of content I can’t even describe in my heart, that’s when you bring happiness to people, you bring happiness to yourself too. But, as time goes, parents want me to focus on study, I have to gave up self learning piano, so my life went back to boredom again.
I seriously think that life is so bored, when can I stop chanting in my heart “ This is so bored?” in every single thing I have done? Can life be as fun as other people have said? What to do if I find something bored again? When can I feel content again?
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Browse thru shermy's blog and saw it...hehe..ps~ im bored so i took the test!
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspxYour view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education: Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.